all her toil

I am looking at the drawn curtains is it to begin or to end... Was the act called I stand in abandon The spotlight stays on Unblinking and without a rest I rehearse again as I stand frozen waiting for a cue to move But the curtains have been drawn And I have been forgotten

I feel like throwing up the strangle's getting thicker i want that noose to wrench its way and kill me with its snigger it was nice knowing you hon i'm sure you feel the same and when i find my way out i'd like to be the one to blame the bile has finally built up i'd let the nausea take control if this is how it has to end then lets just rock n roll

The bodies mix The day diffuses Time then snatched away The pause torn open Fanstasy resolved to smithereens I ask for none I ask for neither I ask for an end to night and day Do me apart For I cant ask A broken bird to beat its wing Take me away For I want no war Give this a stop Give me the dark That is all I ask

I'm yearning and I'm craving I don't know if this is what they call it I do know that a piece of me refuses to be my own It floats, towards you Pulling me along I see myself whispering into the air speaking to the unknown For a few moments with you Wishing they would be strung together forever The suns and the moons The greys and the wrinkles The passions and the laughs They want to be with you I've been heard before I could be heard again...

I write a tear scented by an exploding flower wrapped in brown with a pretty bow Who it's from, you would never know Tangent circles, a rap on my knuckles was told But I've missed that point, I've long missed that point! my own embrace I dearly hold I taste that salt and fear that fright I'm an eight year old with a chucky syndrome but then i wipe me clean and be the queen save ten seconds and i'm back to being old  you give me my bread!! and water me down i'll count the clocks as they chime their dread grow the fat, kill the lust ugliness is heaven behold

I have a tear in my eye As I write to you There's something that I feel is amiss Is it me? It is isnt it I don't belong to you anymore because we dont want it that way we keep looking at the rises and sets like they belong to us but we dont belong to each other we're grown ups with our cups of tea and maturity no surprises here no statements made no promises we will make ever we are the new kinds we are heartless with a perspective with a process to what exactly? why dont we just believe that we dont exist why the charades do we really belong to each other do the masks extend if that isnt true Is this?

I eagerly await, that hour of pleasure and pain Those remnants of a fruitful solace The picture of hidden cracks reassurance of a sane that exists Like a trembling moth I gape wide and clear at my fields of golden corn I eagerly await, my light and my death.

Emotionless How long did I think you could leave me that way I fail I fail But That unspoken word and that welcome embrace I'm taken To that island I didn't know I craved A new breath to call my own A new moment to help me survive I'm going into the unknown again Will you be there To let me come back Find you I may want to live...

I've been told that I would need you That it would be difficult to wriggle out of That you would have a way That it would be insane That it may not make sense really That it would be difficult That it would steal some here and there That it would be futile if it was That it would still make a lot of sense That it should be worth a try That it should not let it take me over That I should probably allow it to? That it could be interesting you know... That maybe - I shouldn't keep talking to myself!

Those smouldering sands I rage with the joy of a child I've known you and the thrills They call out to me again I want to race to time It was yesterday I'm losing again...

I lie in bed, half naked and half true. Find a sheet and wait for familiar sounds to die down. Familiarity doesn't excite me any more like it did a few moments ago. Some of that ale soothes my insides tonight... This one shall pass without too much strife.

I see you coming and move you into a tighter embrace the lightness envelopes and peace restores You are near, you are here Together I'll be in unison with the light again The pain releases, the breath clears, the heart moves with a tender beat I ready myself for you and for it Come and take me, I'm ready...

I have a flame A flame that I endure That I douse That I breathe That I spark The flame that has stayed The flame that endures The flame that breathes The flame that sparks It's hot and cold It dances and smiles It touches where it shouldnt And then it dies only to spark again The flame is its own it isnt mine

missing a slice of my own who did i give it to?